She is going for my birthday. I will not know whether she sincerely wanto go or she has to go as she promise me. I know im not important to her anymore. Im nobody to her. Friend, not good friends like last time. Maybe im afraid. Im afraid if i know she has a gf. I know she is busy. She rather spend time with her family and her friends. Me, her ex gf, someone who she loves so much before, the feeling gone in a week. What am i to her? I dont wanto think about it. But i cant. I cant. I cant.