is so hard to see or judge whether a person can be trust or not after wad you saw. even when come to ask, the person claimed is nth and you just have to accept the fact tt there is reali nth. bringing everyting to tell urself tt the person is a nice and reliable and trustworthy one. however, there is reali sth and not nth.

is it true tt we are the more of useless when sent out to attachment? it keeps coming to my mind. manager of the month. it seems "yeah. maybe i am useless". i only gd at eating and playing a fool around. i guess? oh well.......

friends. colleagues. work. how to differentiate. and somehow you noe tt there maybe problems and there is. so many apologies tt i wanto say but i cant speak and oso do not noe the reason why. in return, just a cold stare, or nth. just plain nth. somehow, i dunoe when it started. but it somehow started without me unknowingly.

and i realise. work is no fun. its beginning to change me.
esp bariah.

oh no, my ma having problems again. haiis.